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leaving Malaysia


i haven't blogged for ages.. or as Mdm Sandy would put it, "donkey years"! hahah =P hmm, speaking about Pn Sandy, the 4 of us still haven't received our editor's cert yet! =)

I'm packing for NZ at the moment.. there's so much to bring!! (I wish I could bring my whole house.. if only a hurricane would come & instead of blowing my house to The Land of Oz.. it'll carry it to New Zealand! heheh.. I wish!) I wouldn't feel the least bit surprised if my baggage turns out to be overweight!! Air Asia charges quite a fair bit for excess luggage, so I've to be very selective with what I bring. Hmm.. maybe I'll haul my huge luggage over my weighing scale to find out if it is overweight =P

Things have been pretty hard for me lately. Sigh.. I'm so emotionally attached to the people in Kch, not to mention 4 four-legged animals that (to my parents horror) I treat like a close kin.. I really really pray that I will not have to give them away.
I've been praying that God'll give me the strength to get thru this. Some of u may not be able to comprehend what I'm abt to say.. but I think leaving Kuching is a billion times harder than having to sit for SPM. I wish I could stay.
Nevertheless, I know if I trust in Him, He'll definitely bring me thru! God seems to be speaking to me again & again thru these 2 verses (it pops up everywhere.. sermons, books, David's & Aunty Joy's smses heheh! =) Jeremiah 29:11 & Romans 8:28. If I were to "mash" these two verses together.. it says that God's plans for those who love Him and have been called according to His purpose are for good, not for a disaster.. to give us a hope & a future! He'll cause all things to work together for them.

It's tough.. I keep questioning "God, why.. why.. what good'll come out of this?"
But if God loves us much more than our earthly fathers.. much more than we can imagine, He will ensure that we understand His plans for us, guide us to follow thru & bless us bountifully =)
leaving my belove loved ones & having to let go of precious opportunities (i'm not sure how to put it).. is so difficult & unfair! To think that I wouldn't be able to see them for a year ++! *exasperated sigh* Maybe it'll be less than a year, my dad says I can come back during Christmas, but it isn't confirmed.. so I daren't get my hopes up in case I get disappointed..

Sometimes I wonder why God made me this way.. why I'm so emotional at times.. but I've come realise that "His grace is sufficient for me. For His power is made perfect in your weakness"! hmm.. come to think of it, I'm glad He did make me this way.. i've learnt to be more dependent on Him. =)

So now, I'm gonna wipe away my tears and "Be strong & courageous". I wanna make the most of my time left in Kuching. GOD, I know u'll help me do that =)

It never ever crossed my mind that it was this difficult to leave your hometown till now.. I wonder how Est, Marie, Jan & my cousins handled it. (to those who still get to stay in Kch, be thankful!!)

Ahh.. before I end.. let me quote those two precious bible verses again!
Jeremiah 29:11~ "For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future & a hope"
Romans 8:28~ And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose for them.

God bless you, whoever you are reading this :)!

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