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My mum has been working round the clock lately. I've noticed distinct lines of fatigue appearing on her face. I'm so glad she's decided she's in dire need of a holiday and NOW, my mum and sister will be going back this Saturday to MALAYSIA. They're both as happy as larks =)

And here I am.. (shamefully) wishing with all my heart that I would be able to go back too. I know I can't - I can't for very simple reasons. One being the fact that I need to stay here to prepare for my tests after the break. Another being I am needed at Easter Camp - I am bringing a friend, and it won't be nice to just leave her like that and 'cabut' to Malaysia =) Haha. cabut. And camp's just the place where I'll get to build friendships with people, help build people up, and at the same time, be enriched myself.

But, God, why am I in this doleful state?
It's my third year here. And I still miss home like the first day I arrived. God, encourage me!
I wonder if Jesus ever felt that deep longing for home when He walked here on earth. Did He miss the familiar scent of home? I wonder if He missed being with His Daddy and angelic 'chums'. After all, He was always in heaven with His Father from the beginning till God sent Him down to die for us.
Did you, Jesus? You must know how I feel then. You do, don't you? =) What kept you going, despite that deep painful longing for home?

Everyone talks about missing the food. Honestly, although I do enjoy the food, not one fiber in my being cares about the food. It's the people I miss.

Reading this post, anyone would think that I'm miserable here. But truth be told, I'm not. I've been blessed with wonderful friends, even with a dog, and I went to watch one of my favourite musicals live last night!
It's just that I can never (and will never) bring myself to forget those dear to me back home =)

Tell me again, Lord why I'm here. Tell me again, why you brought me to this land.
Why is there so much pain being away from home?
Tell me again, Lord, that Your love is all I need to get me through. I love these quiet moments with You =) Love you, Daddy. Be my strength today!

All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before you, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims
The joy and the pain, I'm making them yours

Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my heart, all of my praise
My heart and my hands are lifted to you

Hallelujah! I will rejoice today and not mope around. Each day of my life is carefully planned in detail by You, Lord - including today. I will not waste it. Daddy, I will be strong and courageous because I've got You.

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