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Still learning to ask

This past month I felt like God really wanted me to learn to ask Him. For what? I'm still learning, but I've been praying for anything and everything that's been on my heart like my needs, needs of others, (less frequently) world issues (of course my heart is super flawed, so at the same time, I've been praying that He will align my heart's desires with His and He has been correcting and leading me).

There have just been situations, things that people have said to me, devotions and bible studies that just seemed to have the same theme: learn to ask Me. Without going into detail, the coincidences were so frequent, I really felt that God was trying to get my attention.

And I'm finding that as I learn to ask God more and more on a regular basis:
- I am really learning to depend on Him (I am learning to ask as a result of the realisation of my own spiritual poverty - I am just completely incapable of doing anything right for God in my own strength and I need to depend on His strength),

- He is correcting many MANY wrong, selfish, self-gratifying motives in my heart, and revealing His will to me as I ask - which has been really fun, though quite uncomfortable at times (e.g., beyond delivering my from difficult situations, He has been humbling me and revealing what He wants to teach me in those situations - and that I find, has often been far more valuable than an improvement in the situation itself),

- And even better still, I am getting to know Him better and better - and that to me, has been the best part of this whole process. I have forgotten how generous God is when I keep trying to "earn grace" through my works (which you of course can't). I have forgotten that He is my Father and that I don't have to manipulate Him to help or provide for me, and that I just need to ask out of my relationship with Him as His child.I am learning that I was wrong in thinking that prayer is just about seeking what God can give to you. It's far bigger. Prayer is about seeking God - the person of God, who He is, as we ask out of our relationship with Him.

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