Did I ever mention that I just cannot host parties or big group catch-ups? (That's why I just attend them rather than host them. I have never hosted a big party for awhile.. haha.) It stresses me out waaay too much because I would feel like I need to make every single person feel welcomed - and the thought of that just makes me feel like shrinking because I know I won't be capable of that.
But my pastor shared something last year about the difference between entertaining and Jesus-centred hospitality. And it has really helped with my party-hosting aversive personality.
Entertainment is when everything must be perfect, but hospitality is when you just simply seek to bless.
Entertainment is when you wanna impress others, but hospitality, there is no need to be perfect and impress others - because I already have God's approval and that is enough.
When entertaining, there is no acknowledgement of God's generosity, but hospitality is in response to His generosity.
Entertainment is in dependence upon self, but hospitality is in reliance upon God.
When I feel I am able to love the different people in my life, I don't say, "Yes, I did it" - but I should say, "Yes, God, You did it!"
It never occurred to me that it was my overt concern of getting people to like me that drove my party-hosting aversive personality. But it is so freeing to be shown that hospitality is all about making God great, and not myself great; and that it is about loving others in response to how He loves me.
You know - the reason I am blogging about this at 7am in the morning is because I cooked chicken rice for my friend last night at 10pm (she will eat it today) and I've coooked it soo many times, I really was quite confident it'll turn out pretty good. I was too exhausted to check out how my rice turned out last night, and so with anticipation, I tasted it this morning. And it was bad. Sigh :( :( :( Dry. Too salty. Blergh. I wouldn't eat it.
But I will cling to these truths that God's brought to light, and I pray that regardless of my failed chicken rice, my party-hosting aversive personality and my unhealthy concern for wanting people to like me over the certain truth that I already am approved by God through Jesus.. that He can use me to be a blessing to her today.
Haha - so chill, Abby chill. Even though your chicken rice was a fail, your Daddy's got this! And I will rely upon You, today. Haha, this is kinda funny.
But my pastor shared something last year about the difference between entertaining and Jesus-centred hospitality. And it has really helped with my party-hosting aversive personality.
Entertainment is when everything must be perfect, but hospitality is when you just simply seek to bless.
Entertainment is when you wanna impress others, but hospitality, there is no need to be perfect and impress others - because I already have God's approval and that is enough.
When entertaining, there is no acknowledgement of God's generosity, but hospitality is in response to His generosity.
Entertainment is in dependence upon self, but hospitality is in reliance upon God.
When I feel I am able to love the different people in my life, I don't say, "Yes, I did it" - but I should say, "Yes, God, You did it!"
It never occurred to me that it was my overt concern of getting people to like me that drove my party-hosting aversive personality. But it is so freeing to be shown that hospitality is all about making God great, and not myself great; and that it is about loving others in response to how He loves me.
You know - the reason I am blogging about this at 7am in the morning is because I cooked chicken rice for my friend last night at 10pm (she will eat it today) and I've coooked it soo many times, I really was quite confident it'll turn out pretty good. I was too exhausted to check out how my rice turned out last night, and so with anticipation, I tasted it this morning. And it was bad. Sigh :( :( :( Dry. Too salty. Blergh. I wouldn't eat it.
But I will cling to these truths that God's brought to light, and I pray that regardless of my failed chicken rice, my party-hosting aversive personality and my unhealthy concern for wanting people to like me over the certain truth that I already am approved by God through Jesus.. that He can use me to be a blessing to her today.
Haha - so chill, Abby chill. Even though your chicken rice was a fail, your Daddy's got this! And I will rely upon You, today. Haha, this is kinda funny.
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