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Yesterday I didn't pass my clinical exam. It is really hard especially since it's a dream so dear to my heart and one I have invested so much in.

But I am learning that when I cannot trace God's hand, I can still trust His heart.

His heart that breaks for us in our broken humanity and prompted Him to send His precious son, Jesus.

His heart that loves me very much that He gives me fresh new mercies every morning to see me through the unique trials each day holds.

His heart that is holding me together and using this difficult trial to teach me to let go of how I've defined myself by my career, ambitions or successes, but by this deep lasting relationship I have with my loving God.

His heart that has given me such amazing people around me to help me keep dreaming even if it means my dreams can be shattered, and tell me they love me irrespective of this outcome. How thankful I am for all of you.

And so I am learning that my relationship with God is far more precious and secure than these other more frivolous things I've been putting my hope in that can be taken away so easily from me and ultimately won't last.

Something that can destroy me, He is working out for my good and His bigger purposes.

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  1. Unknown8:39 pm

    Indeed, such faith in these doodle noodles. Remember what you shared with me, the darkest night of the soul?

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  2. faithnoodles8:32 pm

    haha yes I do, but my poor memory can't seem to recall what the gist of that sharing was and I can't seem to find it anymore :(

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