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I have been reflecting and pondering a lot about how I am pacing myself these days. Whether the pace I am going in my life matches the pace God wants me to be going at. Whether the pace I am challenging myself in my rehab is too slow and cautious, and if I need to challenge myself more. And the list goes on! And also how do I know what pace is His pace? 

I had the sweetest moment with my mum's dog, Tassie, the other day when I took her for a walk. I was exploring a small trail behind my house with Tassie. I don't walk as fast because my feet are still recovering and I noticed Tassie keeping on glancing back at me and slowed her pace down to match mine! Definitely had a heartmelt moment there, if that is a word....

If my mum's dog could sense that I need to go at a slower pace then, how much more would God know how to slow me down and speed me up with His wonderful intimate knowledge of me. He knows how I tick, what brings me joy, what breaks my heart, what my fears are, what my hopes and dreams are. He knows what I am capable of now, and what my potential is, including the good work He promises to complete in me. 

I think my takeaway this season is to not try and hurry by too fast that I miss hearing God's still small voice and appreciating the beauty of His hand at work; and also not avoid fully throwing myself into things and taking risks for fear of things not going according to "my plans". We're always encouraged in my field of work to not have "negative goals" (i.e., things we want to stop) but "positive ones" (i.e., things we want to do more of) so if I were to reframe that sentence - my takeaway from this season is to move at a pace that allows me time to pause and listen for God's still small voice, and search for His blessings all around me; and also to wholeheartedly throw myself into what He has for me this season and surrendering my plans to Him. I really believe that God is a God who will always catch us when we fall. :)

A friend of mine challenged me last year to plan my life around time with God, rather than just slotting in my time with God whenever. I think that is an example of wholeheartedly wanting to seek Him.

Hmm, so much to ponder about, I'm excited for what more God has to show me in this area!

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