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Picking up the pieces

I've spent more time this weekend worshipping God in song than I have done in a wee while and it's amazing the things He reveals to you when you worship Him. Next time, when I'm confused and stressed, I'm just going to praise Him and thank Him for everything that He is and has done.

I told God yesterday that I wanted to pick up where I had left off with Him, to again continue in the things He has put in my heart to do with Him. Tough times have chipped away at my faith. I have doubted and been the person James describes as being "tossed by the waves, unstable in all he does" leading me to do almost everything in my life half-heartedly.

But God is my matchless King. Why should I doubt?
All glory, authority and power is His.
He is above all my sadness, despair, pain, hardships, discomfort, discouragement, hopelessness, frustration and constant failings, sins and weaknesses.
He is above all oppression, brokenness, injustice, disease - ALL evil.
He is also above the deepest desires and dreams of my heart.

When I woke up this morning, the words "On my Father's Wings" came to mind - it's the title of this song from a movie in my childhood. I haven't heard it in ages, but as I was listening to it this morning, I really feel that God wanted me to listen to this song to teach me that I am not to pick up the pieces with my own strength, but by depending totally on Him. Ah, Dad You're so cool!

Deuteronomy 32:11, "Like an eagle stirs up its nest, flutters over its young spreading out its wings, catching them, bearing them on its pinions, the Lord alone guided him, no foreign god was with him. He made him ride on the high places of the land."

Here's the song! :)

If you were with me now
I'd find myself in you
If you were with me now
You're the only one who knew
All the things we planned to do

I want to live my life
The way you said I would
With courage as my light
Fighting for what's right
Like you made me believe I could

And I will fly on my father's wings
To places I have never been
There is so much I've never seen
And I can feel his heartbeat still
And I will do great things
On my Father's wings

This world I'll never see
my dreams that just won't be
This horse's stride
With one day's ride
Will have covered more distance than me

Someday with his spirit to guide me
And his memory beside me
I will be free to fly on my father's wings..

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